was really unhappy on fri because of some small issues with a gf.. that makes me wonder if i am a good gf to most of my gfs, namely e closer ones.. maybe some of us really did drift apart after graduation.. maybe i really didn't make the extra effort for some, namely, ade & the gang.. i wonder if they realise it too, its like e whole grp just falls apart..the mo qi wasn't that strong since poly and we shortchange each other as time goes by..sad as it might be..
but i am telling myself i will meet adeline for dinner at least once a month, starting from this wk... i really sort of miss having her around to share my happiness, complains, tears, quarrels etc.. not that we dont communicate, we do msn and stuff, ,but its just different from meeting up and hanging out together.. it is like we used to be so close when when.. ym and i were still together, we have so much more things to share and talk about.. but after francis came along.. i realise more or less, we drifted apart.. it is not entirely because of him but just it feels different.. but at least the both of us are willing to take a step out to meet up for dinner this week :D which honestly i'm really looking forward to..
as for e rest of e gang, i really dont know where to start when i can see that they aren't making the effort as well.. no offence, but its really demoralising..
i was so affected by it that i go around smsing a few of my closest friends, whether one day, will they suddenly be not close to me and we'll drift apart just like forever.. jy's reply was direct, u're my sis, we are like a family and i will always be there for you, just like i have been for the past yrs regardless of where i am, what i'm doing and at what time.. this really touches me deeply.. i remember the nights where i will sms him aimlessly randomly, waiting for some replies and he will just be there.. haha.. regardless whether he was having his a'levels or when he was in shanghai doing internship, he will always be there whenever i need a listening ear or punching box.. that is him, the closest godbrother i have.. a sibingship that i would do anything to cherish and keep forever..
ning's reply was duh but still sweet.. she has too many secrets with me, that she cant leave me..muhahaha.. to think of it, i too have lots and tons of everyday secrets with her too.. all the daily raves and complains.. the little little things in life and work that i always msn her from 9am till 6pm when we knocked off from work... i can share everything with her maybe it is also due to the fact that i know she wont remembers half of the things i tell her as well..haha.. all my secrets and daily complains are confirm safe..
and the other 2 replies' were the normal, don't be silly, don't be stupid and such.. nothing that personal, but still at least they care to assure me..
anyway, i realise through out e yrs, i only have jy, iris, adeline and ning whom we'll like always click and be close even if we didn't meet up that often... its like, we wont drift apart... we'll just go in and out of each other lives and in again.. these are the ppl whom i really trust with all my heart and soul.. my circle of complete trust..i know they wont do anything to hurt me intentionally...because i do matters to them, as much as they matters to me too..
11:39:00 PM
The Gurl
