To my dearest ning..It's good to grieve but I hope whatever painful experiences that you're going through now, they will be useful lessons to make you wiser in the future, rather than allowing them to develop into a deep wound. Pick yourself up girl..There are many other things in life to look forward to, many people around us who will love us more than we know.. By our thoughts we determine the quality of our lives... So I do wish eventually u can rediscover the love in that someone special..someone who is still out there..somewhere..
Anyway, just now on the way home... I took the longer route home again...i walk home from boonlay again.. I didn't really plan to... i just feel like walking..to think and to spend some time by myself..before i turn 21 tmr..to look back on what had happened so far..
The times we spent together... all seem like a dream to me now... for the time during the 2 yrs we have been together... I had everything or i thought i had... and then I wake up suddenly and everything just fades into a distant memory... fading...The day we went our separate ways..
Do you remember how we used to laugh?
Do you remember how we used to play?
Do you remember how we used to argue?
Do you still remember?
Do you remember when you said you'll bring me to disney on ice every yr?
Do you remember when you said you'll spend every single birthdays with me?
Do you remember when it hurt so much to say good-bye?
Do you still remember?
Do you remember when you said you would never leave me?
Do you remember when you told me that lie?
Do you remember when you broke my heart?
Do you still remember?
I remember..
I remember everything..
I remember the tears I cried and the pain I went through..
I remember the day you told me you had someone else all along when we were together
I remember the day you told me she was pregnant..
I remember the day you said you're getting married..
I remember everything I wish I never knew..
8:15:00 PM
A BIG thanks to all those who came on sat for my bday celebration =P even though things wasn't too great at the beginning..but nah..i dun wana talk abt the unhappy things..what is over is over..what matters is that it has a happy ending right =) i got all the presents in my wishlist..muhahaz...even though actually, in fact..my actually bday is on wed...so duh..heehee...
i'm really glad that my bestie ning can clique & get along so well with dear..i lurve the both of them to bits..really dun know what would i do without them on sat..both of them were really guai...muhahaz..and i know they were really tired after the whole event..heehee...my full time & part time bf..and my ex-boss from neptune came with his wife!! i guess i was really shocked but it was a sweet sweet surprise..i nvr expected them to come out of their busy schedule..hmm...i dont know how to describle the warm feeling but its like i nvr knew my boss and wife cares about me so much..talked to them for a long time..their words encourage me so much to hold on.. his wife thanks me for making my boss smiles last time when he is stressed at work...haha...they treats me like their own daughter...gosh..i make an impact in someone's life even though i didn't realise it..heh..gg over to their place for dinner nxt wk..they invited dear & me but my dear is working...nvm..i can still go alone *smiles*
Anyway, I'm so dead tired today..woke up at 7 to go work in the morning..then went sch in the afternoon..came home..i bathe and collapsed on the bed...maybe its because i slpt late the past few days..hmm...but i have no choice...duh..i can only talk to ym at nite..the only time of the day when he is free..slpg early = no dear..*poutz* i'm still coping..its like only the second day of work..yuppie..i know i can do it..although everyday this wk is super packed -_-'''
10:15:00 PM
The Gurl
