Monday, October 30, 2006
Studying for the past few days at home..arghh..grr...i'm gg crazy reading all those lec notes over and over again..and i always seem to have problems concentrating during exams period...poutz..but somethings are better left unsaid i guess.. i'm waiting...and still waiting .... but i know u are someone that is difficult to understand too and you cant share freely with others..sometimes you are warm and chirpy...however u can be so distant and shutdown that no one can reach out to you.. ur msn nicks are misleading... you make me confused... alot..
6:26:00 PM
love that is unreturned is meaningless..if u cant feel it..maybe it just isn't meant to be...a hidden crush is what makes someone miserable.. to be able to have the ability to love, yet not to be loved..i wonder have it ever cross your mind that i have been waiting for u all along since i left him..maybe u knew but u dont care.. maybe it doesn't matter to you at all.. but to me, i've always been waiting for you all along.. catching any little hints that you gave.. but still u disappoint me..
12:45:00 AM
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Carry On Till TomorrowIn younger days, I told myself my life would be my own
And I'd leave the place where sunshine never shone
For my life's too short for waiting when I see the rising sun
Then I know again that I must carry on
Carry on till tomorow, there's no reason to look back
Carry on, carry on, carry on
Beyond the shadows of the clouds and onward to the sky
Carry on till I find the rainbow's end
For my life's too short for waiting when I see the rising sun
Then I know again that I must carry on
Carry on till tomorow, there's no reason to look back
Carry on, carry on, carry on
Drifting on the wings of freedom, leave this stormy day
And we'll ride to tomorrow's golden fields (we'll ride tomorrow's golden fields)
For my life's too short for waiting (a life's too short for waiting)
When I see the rising sun (see the rising sun)
Then I know again that I must carry on
Carry on, carry on, carry on
+what else can i do but to carry on...+
2:28:00 PM
Sunday, October 08, 2006
I hate you..but i hate myself even more..orchard is so big...we managed to be so near each other but i didn't even manage to catch a glimspe of you.. i nvr knew i missed you so much to get so upset wif my bestie becos of you..i better do avoid orchard for the time being..as much i wana see you..as much as orchard is so big..and we still manage to knock into each other despite of me literately keeping out of those high end places..i nvr wana know exactly where in town u're working at...for i know my defense and self control is weak..but do i have a choice?
电话还在响我有些心慌
熟悉的号码在挣扎
故作的坚强虚伪的力量
撑过这一刻更悲伤
没接的电话是一种惩罚
不该想却割舍不下
如果
再见我你能说什么
说爱我或只是寂寞
原谅我冷漠选择不联络
因为我担心你会听见我
还那么难过
短讯声在响凌晨两点半
惊醒的房里更孤单
一句睡了吗像你的习惯
这夜晚为你而混乱
因为对你我连
再见都
说不出口
我想你能懂爱还在心中
9:41:00 PM
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Things will certainly be brighter and better tomorrow, and that I guess, has been the motivation in my life all along.
Maybe old wounds can't be healed overnight, but at least they are forgotten after a while. I thought i had hide them well..but they seem to re-surface whenever i feel lonely..i truely believe that my miracle is coming soon..i pray every single morning and thank God for the miracle that he is going to perform in my life soon...the miracle that is yet to come..
I cant be upset and angry for long because its part of my character..i prefer to be left alone when i'm upset but i don't mind if someone close to me just give me a pat or a hugz to make me feels better..i've always been a optimistic and persisent girl..always happy with what i'm doing and smiling to ppl around me trying to brighten up their day..is that the only reason ppl ard me loves me for?? just becos i'm a smiley person that brings laughter to their life..its like abit shallow to me..i want to be appreciated and loved for whom i'm really am and for my inner strength..and not only on e surface..
i know i'm capable...not trying to be proud or arrogant...but i just know i'm able to handle alot of things at e same time alone at work or in studies...in church or in projects...however, pls dont make use of me...pls dont take me for granted my dear frens and colleagues...i dont lose my temper doesn't mean i dont have a temper..i just like peace..to settle everything in peace and calm and not make a fuss out of it.. i'm still only a human being..i 'm not god...i'm just a simple girl..that has her own emotions and problems... however, she always try to hide them...and it just pile up..y does everyone only cares about the end results but not e process? e hard work and e long hrs are always forgotten..
xxx: i'm unique ok..dun try to be like me or act like me..there's only one yanting in e whole world in heaven and on earth...that behaves and act like me!! be proud of who u're...the way god creates you in his image..
3:11:00 AM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
i love all things that are pretty and sweet.. hectic week rushing from school to work to projects meetings to church and back home for some family time..i thank God for understanding project mates and friends that he brought into my life..They know that i have a busy work schedule thus most of the project meetings were arranged to suit my timing..thanks babes..i prefer to work alone or in pairs if i've e choice...but...i must say it's fun to work in a team and listen to each other ideas...although there will be disagreements..it's all part of the learning process i guess..
went cozybay last nite with the peeps to chill out and catch up..although we see each other like at least thrice a week? haha..he came back from china for a break..it's great to see him back..after a whole mth..sometimes i walked past his cubicle when he is not ard..the emptyness makes me abit emo..lolz..not hearing his deep coughs and sneezing..not hearing his typing sounds at night..not having someone to disturb me and for me to disturb when i'm bored..no one to suprise me with my craving for snacks and ice-choco shakes..haha..i guess only certain ppl will know what i'm talking about..1st time i'm talking abt this guy in my life publicly..bro kel said today during cg..who could reject love? if there is the only one thing that no one wld reject in the world..it wld be love..the presense of being loved and cared for..but i know it's not gonna last..at least at this stage now...it's only known as flirting...muhahaz..i realise i'm more to my super old life nowadays..whenever he is back..late nights..chilling at pubs..supper..babyface..and cozybay at Kallang..i guess one day i'll wake up and realise that it has all been a dream..when the day comes..i hope i've already found someone new..that is serious and well..my cup of tea..
2:50:00 AM
The Gurl
