The Gurl

yanting aka ngaingai
♥ to play around
♥ to travel
♥ to nap
♥ to just daydream about the future

taiwan trip
a job she loves
an office sleek bag
PSP slim
someone
lets go to the ZoO
a veggie to match my carrot
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The Applause

Designer: Siew Min
Basecodes: theBENDANs
Inspirations: Sandra Agnes Maggie Vanessa
Materials: x x x
Image Edits: Paint Tools

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Tired...but i'm happy ;D really i'm..i've never felt so light and free for such a long time...until the past 2wks..when pastor was preaching about emotion baggages..affairs of the heart..healing of old hurts and wounds and the inner vows that we made during our childhood...We all carry emotion baggage and sometimes we might not even notice them...all the old emotional wounds and hurts that we carry from all the past relationships..the fear and insecurities that we have inside of us..the unhealthy feelings and thoughts that always made me emo and upset..i gave it all to him during svc..i no longer wana feel the insecurity that i always have inside me..the fear of being rejected..the fear of being looked down on..the fear of just doing not enough...the fear that i am not the best..the fear that i was never good enough for anyone.....

when pastor prayed for us during svc and last night during cg when i was being ministered to, at that moment, I cried and poured out all that is left on the inside of me..i release all my hurts and disappointments to him..it was hard..it was really hard to pour out everything in me..i kept crying and crying..it had been a hard time going through everything..all the sorrows and heartbreaks..all the late nights and politics at work..all the stress of rushing project datelines and backstabbing..the betrayal of a trusted friend..the fear of losing everything i have..but i know god heals the brokenhearted...god forgives..again and again without fail..and he heals and he heals and he heals...and for the very 1st time..i can feel his presense inside me..overwhelming me and i know deep inside me..i have receive healing from him..i no longer felt unless and disappointed and dismayed by my situations..my circumstances..and i know i'll never be the same again..I told myself that I have cried enough, and it's time to move on...to a bigger dream and destiny that he has for me..