The Gurl

yanting aka ngaingai
♥ to play around
♥ to travel
♥ to nap
♥ to just daydream about the future

taiwan trip
a job she loves
an office sleek bag
PSP slim
someone
lets go to the ZoO
a veggie to match my carrot
updated @ 5th December 07

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The Applause

Designer: Siew Min
Basecodes: theBENDANs
Inspirations: Sandra Agnes Maggie Vanessa
Materials: x x x
Image Edits: Paint Tools

Monday, May 29, 2006

- Still Unable to Feel -

Still not sleeping on my bed.
Still crying myself to rest.
Still not able to smile fully.
Still in pain and hurt.

Unable to clear your gifts.
Unable to stop my thoughts.
Unable to get you out of my head.
Unable to feel joy and happiness.

Feeling like a machine.
Feeling emotion-less.
Feeling so alien to my ownself.
Feeling abandoned and cold.

Shivering in the night
Is the only human thing left.
Can't cry; Can't laugh.
Emotions has forsaken me.

"I will be fine."The four simple words that acts as a mask to my emotions to you.. The only assurance that you've given me through out ..that you know i'll be fine..someday..one day..long after u're gone.. I'm not crying..I cant find anyway to express my sadness and hurt..i cant even cry out loud..i lost my tears somewhere.. It has never been my wish to make you feel guilty or bad. My wish has always only been this and that's for you to be happy always and to remember me as the gurl that could brighten up your day even though she couldn't brighten up hers..